Hey, sorry I know it’s been a while. The social media has just been driving me crazy and I have been driving myself crazy to be completely honest. It’s a guilt complex thing, if I am not working to make money, then I feel like I am hardly working. I have been working towards strengthening my relationship with God and the members of my community church and I have been taking time to cool down my anxiety because believe me, it’s an everyday battle.
I honestly don’t know what to write about. I feel a constant urge to be productive, but the creative drive for music is often intimidating. To approach a DAW is one of the most energy-consuming and also rewarding activities there is to do… I just don’t know how to even go back to it sometimes. My heart yearns to play piano, honestly, but I do not own a piano in my apartment. I want to play church music. I have this memory; it was at this catholic church in Detroit that was close to the Detroit River to Canada. I asked my piano teacher to play her most favorite song and she pulled out a song from the bible… I forgot what song it was, but I always wanted to get on that level of playing.
In Dearborn, it was so easy to sit down at a computer and write music… I believe this is because I had the creative energy to do so. God will give me impulses to create when I need to… Either that or I get so anxious that creating is an outlet. I have no idea. Life is cool, it is definitely moving along. I feel like the internet makes it so easy to assume someone’s life is glamorous. I defiantly was messing around with the internet for this album drop, I wanted to see how insanely I could promote this album drop. Truth is, I don’t want to come off as psychotic, this album is just a fantasy album and I guess I was just trying to get my point across…
I overthink about things too much where I need to disappear and take a step back.
I am just trying to get this album onto streaming platforms, but I have been rushing the process for whatever reason and it keeps getting rejected. I try to use this to my advantage for marketing. I am just blessed that I worked with a couple of talented collaborators, and I will leave it at that. It is the people that makes the art, sure the artists facilitate it, but the art would be nothing without everyone involved.
I think what I am going to work on next is some mixed media… I want to finish this book I have been writing since 2021, the ideas keep morphing into different things. I was also planning on composing scores for orchestral pieces to try my hand in that, or maybe continuing to learn the program WWISE for game sound design. There’s just so many things to do.
I also want to enroll in college courses. I have been thinking of going to Moody Bible Institute. Either that or going back to my art school while I work full time. I want to keep myself busy. That’s what you do in a city, you keep busy.
I always had ideas to buy property, but in all honesty, I don’t want to tie myself down to a place. I know God has a plan for me, I have been praying to seek out that path. I can kid myself and say that I don’t know where to begin, but I like to entertain multiple ideas at once.
I remember when I went to school for Real Estate then quit because I had no interest in the industry. I hope these pursuits aren’t in vain like that was. Sometimes I get sick of blogging about myself. This is just a public outlet, I guess. Hope this helps in some way.
