I think the most important thing for me to do right now is not crashout.
I am so stressed out. I am working my retail job and balancing (so blessed) many shows. I am so so so so so so= sisoososososososo BLESSED. But I am so stressed.
Most people can handle a 40 hour work week, why tf can’t I?
And at the same time, I want to get another job at a coffee shop in the mroning. I just want to pay off my student debt.My mom tells me to focus on my music.
Me me meme, it feels like it’s all about me. I miss my family so bad in Michigan. It gets really lonely, I have been working for 7 days straight. My plans have changed. It’s work all the time.
I don’t know. What I’m doing. With my life.
Ok here is a YAY moment
I love the furry community. Never have i ever been to a furry rave but I am so happy I got booked. Thank you to Tomi and the team for booking with me.
Here are some pictures captured by Absono:
I love this picture because everyone looks so happy and I remember being so happy because everyoen was so AWESOME….!!!!
Here is a Yikes moment:
I want to be in the woods. I remmeber in high school when it was jsut me making music with friends. I miss that. Sometimes I wish I tried harder, but I have to remind myself that God is watching over me.
God is my only hope. This world is really tough, as it has been for millennia.
As my music starts to gain some traction, I realize that mroe people are watching. Sometimes I get scared about my choice in this career.
Sometimes I am ready for change. Sometimes I am confident. But times like this, I reach out to document my growth and my progress. ALL GUILT ASIDE I AM SOOOO READY!!!!
I am SOOOO EXCITED!!!
I AM SOOO BLESSED!!!!
I am #sober too. Thankful. I don’t need to rely on ANYTHING to be creative except maybe caffeine and weed.
I am thinking about hte WEED festival!!! i wanna do the OHIO WEED FESTIVAL AGAIN MAYBE1!!!!!!
Life is actually so cool when I think about it. I wanna do an INDIANA show again. I wanna go to the midwest more.
I wanna meet for furries, I am honestly excited about all there is to come in life, just have to keep God in mind and not take on a guilt complex. Honestly, my mental health has been better but I am going to prioritize thanking people, being honest, and being accountable. Also, not being fake… not trying to be too cool… COOL IS DEAD.
I am so excited. For the future. Have to keep the goal in mind and God in sight.
