“The Floor” is a song I wrote for you. I listen to you guys. You wanted my 2021 sound, so I had to dig something up. I made it better, though. My voice is what stands out in my music is what I realize. I have trained my voice and tried my best to protect it. The lyrics are about wanting someone to follow me to the Floor, I think about all the people who I know that are scared to mess up. I never was afraid to mess up, look how many times I made mistakes and got back on my feet. I used to skateboard all around town growing up. I never did it for tricks, I just liked wandering around town and looking cool. I didn’t want to be a creepy bike person, so I bought a board.
Everything I have from my childhood has been thrown away except my journals.
I don’t know what I’ve really been up to, just the grind. I know how adults feel, I work hard to try to stay afloat. I work hard to get to work. I find that the days I spend online more are the ones where I have the worst state of mind. I can’t help it when I am in the middle of promoting a song.
The music industry is tough, you gotta know a lot of people. I personally don’t want to know a lot of people. I find that good people with good intentions are hard to come by. I try my hardest to keep this business which is my music running, believe me I have no intention to stop. There’s no other thing that makes me feel fulfilled and it’s been like that my entire life.
God wants me to be strong. It’s days like this which make me exhausted, though. It’s 20 degrees outside, I had to take a bus. I work up at 8:30 am to get to work at 10 am. There is character in the grind, but it is also taking my youth on some days. I get it back on other days. It comes and goes. I am on my own now.
Some days I get really emotional, I wish that I was more prepared for the world. Some people raise their kids to be prepared for the world, I’ve seen horror stories. There are other parents who don’t put in the same amount of effort for their kids and raise them the easy way. There really is no easy way, though. This world is not sustainable for many people. Not to be negative, but really, I do think about that. I think about the amount of people I know who struggle their whole lives but somehow scrap through it.
It brings me to the thought, I have to ask myself, what do I really want out of all of this? Like life? I don’t know, I feel like God puts things on our hearts. I think about my uncle who devoted his entire life to art, and well, drinking as well. I hate to say it, it’s so easy to fall victim to your own traps. I refuse to have alcohol in my house. I don’t drink too much, it repulses me. Never will I lose control of my life.
Then I think about if I am sabotaging my own life with everything I post on the internet. I don’t think I am because I live for God and I live for my music. Everything I have every done was for my music. Is it enough? Will it even be enough? I need people, but I strongly dislike asking for help, so I do it on my own. Am I happy? Yes. I am happy.
Anyway, meet me on The Floor. I know you read this, so thank you for giving me a purpose for my job. I will keep going and you will hear from me more, thank you guys.
